Today marks 5 years since I got on a plane in Sydney to go live in Kentucky for a year. I had big dreams for what I would do when the year was up, and none of them included staying in Kentucky.
To be perfectly honest, this month has been the worst in my expat life. But it would be horrible whether I was at home in Sydney or living in another state instead of another country. When bad things happen, they are bad no matter where you are. It's just extra salt on the wound that I cannot easily be with my family (or quickly or cheaply for that matter).
I almost went home but everyone assured me there is no need. It would really hurt our finances after booking our summer trip, but of course money is nothing when you need to be with the people you love. I am not trying to complain - things are getting better and there is no reason for me to worry. It's still hard and I still feel sad about not being home right now.
Since things are improving every day, I am trying to focus on getting back into the swing of things and pretending to be normal again. I'm not normally a very positive person, but I have been fairly positive about everything that's happened because there was no other option. But I haven't been very positive about the rest of my life, so I'm trying to focus on that now.
Starting with talking about the good things that have happened in the last 5 years - and there have been many.
First and most importantly, I have 3 cats. I mean, these girls are the light of my life.
I have the strongest friendships I've ever had in my life. I haven't really made new friends here, only blogging friendships which totally count, but as for my immediate-local-group, quality is more important than quantity. I'm lucky I knew these girls before I moved here, it made moving a lot easier.
I owned my own home - something I had no plans to do back home because renting is more common and easy. It's not something I ever imagined I'd be able to do, but we did it, and then we sold it. House #2 coming soon hopefully (haven't been bothered looking with everything going on).
I've been able to travel - around the US, around the world and back home. Travel is cheaper because things are closer. Except home of course, that's just as expensive, and I've only managed to go back once, but my mum has come twice (three if you include the wedding). Second trip home booked for this June.
There have been many more things not shown above - I've survived snow and tornado warnings, I've attended Derby/Oaks each year, I've met famous people and attended concerts that I couldn't have in Aus, I've tried new foods and gained 30lbs, I've worked 3 jobs, paid bills and lots of dollars to immigration. People always ask me why I moved here when Australia is so awesome, and I have 2 things to say to that (well 3, as I always joke that Australia isn't that awesome):
1. Life is the same anywhere. You work, pay your bills, hang out at home watching TV and get caught up in the mundane. I moved from one country to a similar one (in some aspects anyway). It doesn't feel that different to me. Of course, if I'd moved somewhere exotic, it might be different.
2. Home is where the heart is. I straight up would not be living here if it weren't for KC. Everything else is a bonus, and I love it all, but I'd be home if I wasn't married to him. But with him, I am home (I never said I wasn't sappy). He's my favourite person on the entire planet. He makes me laugh and he makes me happy. He keeps me in line when I'm likely to go crazy, but he's always up for doing things that I want to do and pretending he loves them just as much. He has kept me sane during the past month. He brings out the best in me and handles the worst. He's my person. Getting back together was the best thing we ever did, and I wouldn't change a thing.
|March 2012 / July 2013 / December 2016|
Happy expativersary to me. Here's to the next 5 years! Can't wait to see what they have in store for me..
Also, thank you to everyone's kind words about the bad things I'm going through. I'm not trying to be vague, it's just not something I want to put on the internet. I really do appreciate it though, and things are improving every day which is great news.
Have a good weekend everyone.