Friday, September 16, 2016

Summer goals report & autumn goals

I'm off this week. Not off work, just off. Off centre, off balance, out of it. I don't feel like myself. It's weird, coming back from Australia or saying goodbye to my mum on her other trips, it just throws me for a loop. I feel disconnected from both worlds (er, countries), I don't want to talk about it, I want to go home but I am confused as to which home, I don't want to do anything and the less I do the more restless I feel. I am exhausted but can't sleep, my mind won't stop but I'm not actually thinking about anything. I feel like I am on the outside. That all sounds terribly dramatic, and I am not meaning it that way, I just feel off.  

But I got my goals post ready!

Summer goals

- Increase savings and stick to my payment plan. 
Fail, but not our fault. First, we had the accident and had to pay the deductible to get the car fixed, and when KC switched jobs, we were on one income for a hot minute. We had no issues paying bills and feeding ourselves, but it was not the season for making extra payments or adding more to savings.

- Meal plan and eat fruit & veg with every meal. Pass-ish, I still have a long way to go with meal planning, but we drastically cut down our little mid week grocery stops for one or two things, and for the most part I always knew what was in our fridge/pantry and what was for dinner. As for fruit & veg, I didn't have it for every single meal, but I absolutely increased my fruit & veg - salads, smoothies, throwing random veggies into a meal. It's a lot easier than it sounds, just needed to make the effort.

- Run 3 times a week. Pass-ish, most of June was a fail because of the accident (I was in a lot of pain the week or so after) and the cruise, but after that it was great. I ran 3-4 times each week.

- Get rid of 100 things. Fail, I kept meaning to do it but then I didn't. 

- Do something new in Louisville. Fail, but on purpose. As noted above, it was not the season to try new things since all the things I want to do cost money.

Bonus: Have a great time on our cruise. Pass, we had a great time. Ate all the food, drank all the drinks. We were lazy and it was great. We also got straight back into eating normally and working out the day after we got home, so that was great - it's normally something I struggle with. You can read the recap here.

Summer is my favourite season, but I'm not sad to see this one go. Bye Felicia.

Autumn goals

Technically (or not technically, but Kristen-ally) my autumn/fall has started since it's September-November, but because of my trip and the link up being today, I might go with America on this one.

- Declutter and get rid of stuff. Our spare room is overflowing, I have no coat hangers left and refuse to buy more, I can't even open most of my drawers they are that full, I have so many containers but not as many lids, I grabbed something out of the pantry the other day that had expired like 2 years ago.... My whole house needs spring cleaning.

- Track eating and lose weight. My weight is back up again (if you follow me on snapchat, you saw what I was eating on my trip and are now saying 'well, duh') and my eating is just out of control. I do not know why I struggle with portion sizes and unhealthy food so much. I've always been able to counteract bad eating with a shit ton of exercise, but it's getting harder and harder and the weight is just piling on no matter how many miles I run.

- Focus on running and speed. I feel pretty good about distance and consistency in regards to my running lately, but not about speed, at all. If anything, I've gotten slower. I need to focus on speed workouts and actually pushing myself. If I can walk faster than I am 'running', it's a problem. Okay, not a problem, but it's not where I want to be.

- Pay shit off, don't spend, save money. I think I will do a post on everything I bought on my trip, but lets just say I did some damage. I have to rebuild savings, stop spending even the little seemingly inconsequential shit and pay all my crap off. Well not all of it, but a chunk.

Here's a completely unrelated picture of my fluffiest kitty. We think she's getting fatter but it's hard to tell with all her fluff.


Linking up with Steph and Sara.

Life According to Steph

I had a great vacation with my mum (though of course we bickered plenty, like I said, she drives me batty) and I am glad to be home, but I am ready to feel like myself again. I'm hoping this weekend is what I need to reset.

48 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry you feel that way! I can totally imagine that being a thing though! I hope you feel right as rain here ASAP! I think it's so great you even have goals I never do that sort of thing so good for you! These are excellent goals of course. And as I always say it's vacation you're allowed to eat all the things. They looked so tasty too!!

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  2. First of all, your kitty is adorable. Secondly, don't be so hard on yourself! I can relate to a lot of what you said.

    Feeling pressure to get things paid off is really hard. But it will get paid off EVENTUALLY and that shouldn't stop us from living our lives in the here and now.

    Also, sameeeeeeeee when it comes to previously being able to eat whatever I want and just exercising a ton. Apparently I'm a gramma and gramma can't do that anymore. Everything I eat goes straight to my stomach, ugh! Clean eating is on the horizon, I just need to accept it.

    Happy Friday!
    Danielle @ afloat on a full sea

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  3. I understand how you feel . . . my mom and I both get that way after we leave each other and we are only states apart. I want to be "home" where she is and where I grew up but my life is here in Georgia. It gets me all out of sorts and takes me a bit to feel better. I do weird things to sort it out too - like organize stuff, clean the house, sort my finances . . . things that make me feel back in control!

    I'm digging your goals . . . you got this girl!!

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  4. I've been feeling off too, so I can empathize. I've been struggling with eating a lot too. I keep saying that I'll get back in check but when everything is stressful, I push it off again. Proud of you for continuing to run though! That counts as a win!!

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  5. Sorry to hear that things didn't go as planned :( It always sucks when life happens and your goals get derailed. It'll get better! Good luck with your autumn goals :)

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  6. I know what you mean by the 'off' thing. Sometimes I feel like I want something, but I don't know what it is and am just generally dissatisfied. Also, totally understandable since you don't get to see your mom often. I see my mom a couple times a year and admit I still cry like a baby when I have to go or she does. Which is weird because she'll drive me crazy the whole time I'm around her! I hope that now that life is probably less crazy, after the accident and vacation, you will feel better about your goals. I have been decluttering here and there, but I need to go through my closet again.

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  7. feeling off is the worst; it's like you dont know what to do with yourself/how to get back "on". hope it all works out.

    my only goal when i get back from vacay is a spending freeze which i always do after vacation. oh, and my dining room is out of control again (HOW!?).

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  8. Continuing to run but not seeing results? Welcome to almost 30. It's the pits.

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  9. It's always so hard to come back after a vacation, so I can only imagine how hard it is when you get to spend time with your mum who you don't get to see very often- so I don't think you're being dramatic at all! I'm trying to be mindful about eating better going into the next few months because basically all I want to eat are desserts and carbs and other heavy things. I've been torn between buying salads and produce and then it goes bad because it never sounds good. But when I don't buy it, I get mad at myself for not having healthy options- it makes no sense! I think you are going to do awesome with your goals for the next few months! and yess for a shopping recap, because it's good to track your spending, but also fun to see what you got :)

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  10. I love all your financial goals! We have so many here, but it's SO HARD when I want to buy ALL THE THINGS. Seriously! But it's great to have those goals keep us in check :) I hope to declutter a lot this fall, too :)

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  11. Purge and organize is on my list too. I have a lot of stuff sitting in piles that needs to be donated right now!

    Yeah, toodleoo to this summer for you.

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  12. Sending you all the *hugs* as you try to fall back into routine after all that fun with your momma last week! Cheers to Friday and tackling those autumn goals <3
    Green Fashionista

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  13. that feeling of being off is real talk, chica. i don't think you have to try to explain it or understand it - just be and really sometimes time is all you need. but these are good goals! and i'm so so glad you had some mom time. that really is the best thing in all the land :) hope you have a good weekend!

    xoxo cheshire kat

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  14. I like your fall goals! De-cluttering and spring (fall?) cleaning is on our list at our house but it's more like unpack/throw stuff away so we can get all the boxes gone. Good luck with your speed training! I didn't realize how much speed training actually worked until I was doing it in the spring (and setting a PR in each race I did). Hope it goes just as well for you & your sub-2 goal!

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  15. Unhealthy food just tastes so good. I mean vegetables can taste good, too, but unhealthy stuff carries a level of satisfaction that can't be matched. I'm so with you there. Decluttering is a nice feeling and something I should tackle again. I've been in my house for two years and I'm sure there are things I haven't touched since I moved in!

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  16. Bless your heart. I'm sure that gets really hard emotionally.
    I will say, I feel off & I keep hearing others feeling just weird right now - so maybe there's something in the air with the season change too ... on top of your emotions of seeing your momma. Give yourself time. It'll get better soon.

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  17. Ugh I hate that feeling, I hope it passes for you soon. :) It's a bummer when huge expenses like that come up and derail everything, but it sounds like you guys did really well all things considered. KC and I have been home for multiple weekends in a row now, and we are getting into a groove with cooking and meal planning and it's been so great. Like so so so great. We actually have leftovers, we spend less money, we spend more time together, the kitchen is cleaner and the dishes get done... it's been awesome. I've also been reading. I sometimes think I dramatize how "busy" we are - not trying to glorify... but then it's very clear that I am not making it up... once we've had a bit of time at home. Good lord. Makes all the difference. I'm hoping that cooking more, etc. etc. can keep us on a better track food wise and health wise. :) So far it seems like a decent start. I notice not even wanting dessert most nights, which is lovely.. because that doesn't usually happen. :P Good luck with your fall goals! :) XO - Alexandra

    Simply Alexandra: My Favorite Things

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  18. It must be the week for feeling off as I'm in the same boat. I've been incredibly unproductive this week, which sort of makes me guilty but not really. Of course, next week, when I'm racing to catch-up, I'll be full of regret. It looks like you have some really good goals for Fall. I haven't even thought about goals, which is probably why I struggle to achieve them. LOL! I'm so glad you had a great time with your Mum (and I love how you call her Mum) and love, of course, the picture of your kitty, whose name I can't remember. Old age. It's a real problem! :)

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  19. My shopping has been out of control lately! With being pregnant & finding out it's a girl plus all the cute fall clothes that are out?! Omg I can't help myself! I definitely need to reel my spending habits back in a little bit!

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  20. Awe I am sorry you are feeling off. I get sad when I say bye to my mom after seeing her and I get to see her several times a year, so I cant imagine what it is like for you. I need to organize, clean and get rid of stuff through my entire house. I feel like it is a goal on every list I make, don't you? LOL. Good luck with these!

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  21. Oh, I totally know that feeling. I would get it when I was living away from "home" and a friend/family would visit. After they left I'd feel so bereft and unsettled and unable to focus for a few days.
    I meant to have my fall goals up for this link but work chaos overwhelmed me. I am definitely in need of a declutter. We are moving in October and I CAN'T WAIT to use the opportunity to get rid of all the unnecessary junk - I will be ruthless!

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  22. I'm off too. I've spent more time up in my head than I have in weeks and as a result I feel really ungrounded. David noticed the other day that I couldn't even string a sentence together when we were talking. I'm pretty sure (for me at least) part of the blame belongs on Mercury in retrograde, but it seems more likely for you there's other stuff going on in addition. Hope the next few days help you recenter and find some grounding.

    As for summer goals, it seems like you did great considering the unexpected circumstances!

    Our fall goals are somewhat similar. My eating has been off lately, and my workouts and sleep are starting to suffer. I just can't seem to get full some days or eat at all some others, so I know I need a good rebalancing to my diet and pick better options every day. As for running, yeah...I've got work to do too! Good luck :)

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  23. Sorry you're feeling off. I'm with you, fall should just be Sep 1-Nov 30. Good luck with your goals & I hope you're feeling back to normal soon.

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  24. I'm sorry you're feeling off, that sounds rubbish. I hate feeling out of kilter. I get it a bit when my sister goes back to Australia, which happened about a month ago. Plus the last few months have been crazy in both good and bad ways, so I'm feeling like my head's in a total whirl. I just want to stay in my house for a bit and get back on top of mundane things like meal planning and decluttering. I'd ask if that was weird but I get the feeling you're on the same page!

    P.S I have more lids than containers. Maybe I have yours?

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  25. I always think Hawkeye is getting fatter but then I get her groomed and she's back to normal. So we'll just say it's fluff :) Your first goal makes me happy! Do you clean more at home in this time frame? Since it's spring in Australia?

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  26. You had such a rough summer :( No shame in taking a little break to heal and/or relax.
    Once you get into a rhythm with food and exercise and work etc. hopefully things will start to feel a little better. Right now I'm trying to train myself into some new habits for fall (volunteering/exercise/cooking more) but it's all making me so exhausted. I know I just need to get over the hump and fall into the habit!

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  27. I'm sorry you're feeling off! Hope you feel more "normal" soon. Your kitty is so beautiful! I also need to declutter in a serious way!

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  28. That must be tough to feel like that - and understandable why those emotions would be there! I hope you start feeling "on" soon :)

    Get rid of 100 things? That's serious commitment that I would have failed also lol. I have a hard time throwing stuff away. I'm not a hoarder, but still lol.

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  29. Aw, you can and you WILL get back into the swing of things. :) Just start with baby steps. Maybe instead of saying "get rid of 100 things" you can say "before I allow myself reading time on Saturday, I will spend 20 minutes de-cluttering." That might feel more practical and less overwhelming? Maybe in that time you'll get rid of 10 things or 30...who knows but you will at least feel like you made progress without sacrificing your whole weekend! Thanks for helping to motivate me with your list!

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  30. I'm sorry to hear things are feeling off for you. I go through funks too, and the good news is, they always pass!

    Lately, I love to declutter. I recently overhauled and kitchen. You should have seen all my containers and lids. I spread them all out and matched up sets and tossed the extras. Ahh, so nice! My spare room sounds a lot like yours though. So much junk! I don't even know where to start with that one.

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  31. I need to start following you on Snapchat! I can totally relate to the feeling of being off as I felt that way for the past month or two. Not because I'm torn between two worlds it's just a weird sort of year and I feel topsy-turvy pretty much all the time now.

    Some really great goals for this fall too! I really need to work on the whole paying things off myself! Hopefully I will get my fall goals posted next week!

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  32. I think you did great with your goals!! I tried the whole veggie with every meal thing too, and the last few nights I've tried to pass off sweet potato fries as a vegetable. It could be worse! :) Sounds like you are going to have a great fall too!

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  33. I've been adding peas or broccoli to a lot of meals, especially anything that involves a sauce. Adorable kitty. If she is gaining weight, she hides it well!

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  34. Hang in there, friend - we all have weeks like that. I've been feeling that way myself one too many times lately. It's just a funk, and I'm sure it will pass. On another note, hey - considering your accident and everything, you did pretty well with your August goals! And, your fall goals are super attainable. I'm sure you'll crush it!

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  35. You do not sound completely dramatic at all. I can't imagine saying goodbye, and being so far away from home and family all the time. So you are the STRONGEST, and not the most dramatic :)

    And "pay shit off" is my new life mantra.

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  36. I sort of know how you feel. Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong anywhere. I've lost more of my Aussie accent and it really bugs me sometimes. But I still have enough left where I sound Australian to Americans, but sound American to Australians. Sometimes I just really want to move back to Australia, but everything I have is here. It sucks.

    Also, my sister had a baby in Australia and she's started posting more and more pics and videos of him and while I love it, I feel like the worst human being for not being there, for not having met my own nephew.

    Anywho, I hope you feel better soon. Can't wait to hear about your trip, it looked fun!

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  37. I always feel off after coming home from a trip too, especially when that trips involves visiting family (or the opposite - when family visits us and then leaves). I actually dread that day. I'm usually pretty down and borderline depressed for a few days post vacation. My parents don't live nearly as far away as yours do, but I think I know sort of what you are feeling. I'm glad you had a great trip with your mom though! I'm really excited to see what you bought haha. (I remember the snap of all your bags haha!!). My husband is currently in Vegas on a guys trip, and while I'm pretty sure he won't be shopping, I'm like "pllllleeeease don't spend all of the money" ;P

    Good luck with you fall goals! My whole house needs a spring cleaning too. My pantry is atrocious. Like so embarrassing. My mom is visiting right now so my plan is to pull everything out and organize it and make her help me lol ;)

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  38. Oh girl, I totally understand that "off" feeling as for years that's how I felt everytime I'd leave Jesse or he left me. I'd cry and hear myself saying "I want to go home" in my head - only realising that I was actually "home" and what I wanted was that feeling of comfort instead. Home wasn't a place but a feeling and everytime he'd come and leave I'd relearn what that feeling felt like only to miss it again. Distance SUCKS major ass... and it's not fair and it hurts but I always found as much as I hurt or felt off - I'd find my balance again. Sending huge hugs your way in the meantime - and remember that it's totally normal to feel that way!

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  39. It doesn't sound dramatic in the least. I'm in a funk every time I come back from London because it's one of my LOVES. Every time you leave a love--your mom, your hometown, your husband, whatever--I think it's normal to miss it and feel some pain. It's beautiful, really. It means you really love that thing! What you've done is a good idea--create a list, get back in the swing of things! Just give yourself a little grace :)

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  40. Saving money is the worst. The actual worst. I've always been terrible at it. I'll get a gift card from someone even... and before I put it back in its envelope I've already started fantasizing about what I'll buy with it. lol Pathetic.

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  41. OK, but I watched your vacay snaps and I was jealous of your food :) Totally worth the pain afterwards to be able to indulge on vacation! As for decluttering, I promise - you will feel better after each thing you get rid of.

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  42. I appreciate your honesty of what you didn't have happen for summer--but you did some great stuff! And I loved reading your fall goals. Thank you so much for the great comments on my past posts. That really means a lot.

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  43. As someone who has battled my weight my entire life, I understand where you were coming from when you said, "I do not know why I struggle with portion sizes and unhealthy food so much. I've always been able to counteract bad eating with a shit ton of exercise, but it's getting harder and harder and the weight is just piling on no matter how many miles I run." I have dealt with the same demons. First, American culture plays a huge part in what I call "portion distortion." For example, when I used to eat cereal more regularly, I'd just fill up the bowl thinking it was a portion. Well, no it wasn't... Not even close. It was more like 2 1/2 portions! And, keep in mind that as you get older, your metabolism is going to change. That takes some definite getting used to. Hang in there and keep fighting the good fight!

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  44. Kristen-ally. You crack me up. I'm sorry you are feeling off, but hopefully in the few weeks since you've written this you have gotten back on again! I'm glad you had a good time with your mom.

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  45. I'm the same way with my mom. She drives me batty. I spend a lot of time with her and she's my bestie.. but she drives me nuts at the same time. Ha. I'm sorry you were feeling a little off. I hope your feeling better!

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  46. That pic of Chelsea made me go all googoo-gaga and I'm not ashamed to say it. What resonated most with me in this post was this: "I want to go home but I am confused as to which home". I can't tell you how many times I've said "I wanna go home"...while I was standing in my flat. It's like I want to go to a home I've never been to -- which is likely not what you meant at all, but that line hit me like a punch. Also, I love that you set goals for yourself regularly. I wish I had that kind of discipline. You're awesome, yo.

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  47. Hope you are back to feeling like yourself! Loved seeing all your snaps on your trip!

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  48. I love the idea of getting rid of 100 things. I think I need to add that to my list of goals for this month!

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