Tuesday, May 26, 2015

My 'oh shit, Europe is less than 3 weeks away and my jeans still don't fit' post.

First off - I'd love if you'd check out my interview with Jana for her Interview with a bookworm series! It was such a fun thing to answer, I mean who doesn't love talking about books?! Check it out here.



I haven't been doing my Sunday Sweats posts lately - my bad - but my workouts have been fairly boring anyway, so no biggie. Truth is, I just don't feel like sharing that I'm working out and not seeing results.

I've lost a bit of weight recently, but not enough. I know it is 100% because of my food choices (damn doritos with my nachos) but for the past few days, I have been very well behaved. Unfortunately, there is not much I can do between now and Europe to make those jeans fit any better, short of buying new jeans - which I will have to do if I don't lose a bit more. That's the hard truth right there.

I know I'm not fat. But I'm not happy with myself, and that's what matters. The below photo makes me cringe. My legs are huge and my upper body has zero definition. But I still posted it on instagram, because who cares?


I'm not going to lose 10lbs in 3 weeks, so it's silly to even try. Just gotta make healthy decisions. Eating well and exercising as much as I can - without going overboard on either. Specifically:

1. No gluten. 
Seems obvious, but it's so hard for me to say no to when it's in front of me. If I don't want to be vomiting all over Paris, I need to stop.

2. No snacking.
I'm not a good snacker. I know all the people say smaller meals and snacking is good, but it's not for me. If I am hungry, I need a meal. I don't need snacks, I just eat them because I'm 'supposed' to and that's just extra calories I don't need.

3. No junk.
This is my biggest thing. I fall into a trap of 'well, I'm not going to lose weight so I might as well get a milkshake'. If I had just buckled down months ago, I wouldn't be having to buy new jeans right now.

4. Consistent hard exercise.
No slow running. No easy weights. I need to push myself, and I need to do it almost every day.

5. Running + Weights + Yoga.
Further to the above, I need to do all 3 of the things that I enjoy and that will help me look better. Yes, I'm vain, I know. They also help me feel better as well.

Linking up with Tracy and Alyssa.

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Gosh, what a boring post, sorry guys. It's an embarrassing thing to share that you don't like how you look or what you weigh, or that you had plenty of time to lose weight for a trip and you still didn't. I'm trying to remind myself that I need to focus on being healthy and it doesn't matter what the scale says, but it's hard. I don't want it to get to me, because then I will do something stupid like eat 500 calories a day (which will just make me sick anyway).

I'm not feeling super fit and healthy right now, stupid jeans and number on the scale. If you have any suggestions, please throw them at me. Ultimately, I know I should be healthy for my life, not just a trip. Not to mention I know my weight won't affect my trip that much. But it sure would be nice for my jeans to button up, that's all.

40 comments:

  1. Girl, I think you look ahhhhmazing! Seriously. But I know how you feel because I feel the same way. I know I'm not fat but I'm not happy with how my body feels and looks right now. This past weekend was my last of bad eating and drinking for a month so hopefully I can kick my own butt back into shape. Definitely not a boring post, I love hearing what you're doing (so I can steal some ideas ;) )

    <3, Pamela
    Sequins & Sea Breezes

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  2. 1. You look fantastic! 2. Throw out the scale! I threw mine out about a year ago and it makes all the difference. Concentrating on just eating better and working out makes a huge difference. I have no clue what I weigh right now but I know what I can physically do and I know how my clothes fit. Works for me! :)

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  3. First of all you look awesome! But I totally know the feeling of still not being comfortable in your own clothes and skin. Keep rockin' those workouts, and before you know it you and your fabulous self will be in Europe ;-)

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  4. You know my thoughts on this..you are freaking gorgeous and I wont hear another word. BUT. You and I have been fighting with the scale for some time now. And I get not feeling like you are where you want to be. You just keep doing what you are doing, because you are working hard and eventually your body is going to catch back up with that. You are going to Europe girl!!!! I know you are going to have a fantastic time and you are going to be walking around and site seeing and will have zero cares to give on which jeans you are wearing. I promise. :)

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  5. Can I do this challenge with you!? I have a wedding in two weeks to go to and while the dress fits I'd like to be a bit more tones - #storyofmylife lol! xo, Biana -BlovedBoston

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  6. 1) everything you said about yourself is not true.


    2) 3wks is plenty of time to hit your goal!!! you are 100% right - it's all about the food. i know that for me, if i don't make the right food choices, i won't see a damn thing...but i also factor in my age since that is totally working against me.

    3) i almost want to put a plan together for you that includes a meal plan + exercise routines but then we wouldn't be friends anymore and you would hate me because i'm a cold-hearted bitch when it comes to hitting goals. my gym buddy dreaded seeing me for a while at first because i always yelled at him to do better, lift heavier, go harder, you're resting too long! keep going! then he started seeing results and now we're cool LOL

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  7. Girl I feel you! I feel like I'm always in the "not fat but not happy with my body" boat. Keep up all of your good work, you look amazing!

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  8. Girl, on no planet whatsoever are your legs huge. BUT...it's not what I think that matters. You obviously don't feel good about them and are motivated to get yourself to a place of better fitness. You already know that it's going to come down to food choices. (And I am with you on not being into the "snack all day/mini meals" thing. I am sure it works for some people and that's why they swear by it, but not for me.) Maybe a little more accountability in this area would help you day to day? Like a food journal (that's what Carrie Underwood uses) or a group of some kind either online or in real life where you're checking in and really don't want to have to share that you had a milkshake...so much so that you DON'T get the milkshake. KWIM?

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  9. Yay for health goals! I should add "hard" exercise to my goal too. I can be such a slacker if someone isn't yelling at me to do something. I don't even know how I can manage to jog at a 3 mph pace lol.

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  10. I know how you feel with the I'm not fat, but I still want the scale to move and for me to look better. Pre-pregnancy (I won't even dare selfie at the gym right now), I was just like that. BUT, you are beautiful, and I'm with Nadine -- when you're roaming around Europe, you won't care about what size those jeans are. :)

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  11. You have a thigh gap! Your legs look great! Don't worry about the numbers. When you feel good that should be all that matters. I'm with you though. I'm not happy with my body right now and the numbers bother me too. I always remind myself that I will never regret a workout and that usually motivates me to get to the gym.

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  12. Wow! 3 weeks! So exciting. I totally understand. We are going to the beach at the end of July... my first ever beach vacation... and I've never felt worse about my fitness level. We are making lots of improvements eating at home more. I've rarely had sodas... we've been doing a lot of cleaning and organizing which keeps me off the couch and netflix... :) I need to be better about yoga still. But I have been doing *some *light arm weights... Good luck, I definitely think being healthier is so much better and will help you some for sure before Europe. I know anytime I gave up meat or soda regardless of other things it helped a ton! XO -Alexandra

    Simply Alexandra: My Favorite Things

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  13. I have nothing to add that everyone else hasn't already said other than to say I totally get how you're feeling because I am in the EXACT same boat! (Well, I'm not going to Europe, but other than that!) I keep giving myself deadlines and then flaking out and moving it back, over and over, and something has got to give!

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  14. I'm all for being healthy but having a husband with a masters in exercise science and a sister who is studying nutrition... what is wrong with gluten??? there are plenty of things that are gluten free that are bad for you!

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  15. You work hard... i know you'll get where you want to be.
    I'm starting the 21 day fix next week so I'll be with you on all the changes

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  16. I think you look great but hopefully you can achieve what makes you feel comfortable so you can enjoy your trip.

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  17. You'll probably lose a bit of weight walking MILES AND MILES in Europe! lol. I think you look great! But I'm with you on having more definition in the upper body. I am WEAK in that area :)

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  18. I am buckling down too, so much stress at work led to me not working out and eating crappy and my pants aren't fitting so well either. Eating healthier and working out is always the way to go. You can totally do it!

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  19. You have a body that so many women would LOVE to have. I hope you know that. I'm working hard to limit snacking and trying to drink more water (as usual). I know you set high standards for yourself and all I want is for you to feel happy as you. Here for you to talk as always.

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  20. I suggest you forget about the jeans all together and wear a maxi skirt! I'm biased cause I hate pants but seriously for traveling I don't think it gets much better than a maxi skirt or a pair of leggings. I know that doesnt fix the problem but youre gonna be on vacation! you should enjoy it and if the pants are going to be a total bummer I say leave them at home! As far as tips for eating well... ughh that is my downfall too. I do a decent job of not bringing junk into my house but I love being in the kitchen making food which always leads to me snacking on something while I'm in there so I've been making myself go take care of other household stuff like cleaning out my closet or underneath my bed. Just not being around food all the time helps prevent me from mindless snacking.

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  21. This is the kind of stuff I meant when I talked about sharing your ugly last week. It's okay to not be particularly proud of yourself or to be upset with your choices because everyone does it and that's life.

    That said, you can do this. You have a realistic goal that's more about consistent life changes than crash dieting and that's healthy, physically and mentally.

    And thanks for doing the interview!

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  22. Throw away your scale. Job #1. It's useless because it tells you not one bit about how healthy you are. Throw. It. Away. (Or at least, I dunno, put it in the trunk of KC's car or something.)
    Set little limits to start and add on. No snacking after XYZ time of night. (I started doing that this year and putting it on my monthly goal list as I'm moving the time earlier and earlier. I've noticed a MASSIVE difference.) Do the same for snacks. No snacking between X hour and Y hour. Each time you do it—don't break the chain!—you'll gain motivation. You CAN do it. You just need to stop setting yourself up with restrictions that you can't or won't (for whatever reason) follow. And then you need to learn to forgive yourself for slipping. IT HAPPENS. You're not a machine. You can not be doing 100%, 100% of the time.
    <3 you can do anything you want to do. You just have to give yourself the proper techniques and motivation to do it.

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  23. Ok I totally get that you should be happy in your own skin and it's up to you to decide what that is to you, but your legs look good!! That being said I am in the same boat. Normally I am so much better about eating healthier esp around this time of the year before the beach, etc and I just haven't been. I need to get out my medicine ball and do some ab exercises. I tried to do whole 30 a week or so ago and I made it to whole 5 haha. It was just too restricting seeing as I don't eat much meat and all I could eat was basically vegetables and I don't think eating 2 avocados a day is all that healthy either lol. My new plan is similar to yours no junk(esp cupcakes) since I'm always baking here! Going to try to stay away from gluten as well. We can do it! lol xo

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  24. Girl, you look great! I totally understand where you are, though. I was there before I got pregnant and it was HARD WORK but I was able to lose 10 lbs. It took way longer than it should have, but it feels so good once you start noticing changes. Think about the long term and your lifestyle will gradually lead you to better choices. You can do it! I'll join you as soon as I'm allowed to workout post baby! :)

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  25. I am really NOT one to push myself. I'm happy just that I'm doing it. And that's good for a while, but at some point I need to change that.

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  26. you look great!! smart plan tho, and i agree with alyssa! ive never owned a scale. those numbers can freak you out. it's all about how you feel and how those clothes feel! xo jillian - cornflake dreams

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  27. GIRL! You look incredible!! Also- 3 week countdown is officially on! Have any room in yalls luggage?

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  28. I don't like snacking much, either. I would rather have three meals.

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  29. Keep up the great work girl. You look great! Up the water intake and ditch the scale. It only adds added pressure!

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  30. I'm with Kathy, it starts with food. Do a Whole 9 for the next 2 weeks... the origianl version of the Whole 30. No grains, sugar, dairy, alcohol or legumes.And no cheating. I promise you will lose! Either way, I think you look great but I know it really only matters how you feel and you know how you want to look:) You got this!

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  31. Sooooo many of these comments are spot on! First that you look great just the way you are - I know that doesn't mean anything if you don't feel it so I get where you're coming from, but just had to let you know that.
    I realized yesterday that we didn't bring our scale to the beach and I panicked for half a second because then how will I know how fat I am?! Truthfully I only get on it maybe a couple times a month and I never let the number I see make me feel good, only bad. Like if I see a high number I'm like oh crap, gotta stop eating cookie dough but if I see a low number I'm never like "oh yay, I must be making good choices!", I'm just like oh that's nice I guess, whatever. So I'm actually kind of glad that I don't have it because truthfully the number doesn't mean squat if how I feel doesn't align with what the scale says.
    If the cookie dough comment didn't give it away, food is my biggest downfall too. I wish I had some tip or trick to help you with that one, but all I can say is good luck.
    I'm glad you posted this even if you thought it was boring or whatever - it's your journey and sharing the bad is sometimes just as important as sharing the good.

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  32. Girl I feel you, I have a wedding to go to in 9 days and the dress I'm wearing is soo tight. I have been trying to lay off the snacks and not eat past 7pm. But that will be the story of my life lol. Also totally watched Matilda the other day and was hooked, like couldn't look away from the screen. I forgot how good that movie was!

    x. Morgan / www.morningappleblog.com

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  33. I'm doing the saaaammmeeee thing in getting ready to be in a wedding in 3 weeks and NOT feeling happy with how I look in that dumb dress. It is so frustrating. I feel your pain. And then every few days I'm like FUCK IT I'M EATING EVERYTHING and then I'm mad at myself the next day. what are we to do!

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  34. We're going on a cruise in 2 weeks, and I feel like I'm exactly at this point. I'm nowhere near where I want to be. *sigh I hope we both make it!

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  35. Thank you for this post! It's summer and I too need to loose 10 lbs. fast. xx


    ALLURE OBSESSED - BEAUTY BLOG // BLOGLOVIN'

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  36. I think you look great, but ultimately it's about how YOU feel and you need to love yourself and feel good about yourself.
    You can do it girl!

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  37. You do look great Kristen!! I'm sorry you are feeling this way. I think focusing on feeling good and doing what is healthy is the important thing, not the numbers. Lots of good advice from the lovely blogging community. Buy the new jeans and enjoy your trip, don't let it cloud a wonderful opportunity and experience. You can get back on track when you get home. Live it up! :)

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  38. Thats the thing. Im not fat but not happy with certain issues ... like my tummy ... so I feel you, oh how I feel you on this post. You have great goals so Im sure you will rock it. PS. It should be a no brainer for me to say no to gluten as well - I get bloated as all hell if I even look at bread but I falter too. I need to write a post about it and ways to stay the heck away from it. UGH!

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  39. I feel you on the falling into the junk food trap. Story of my life! :( You're doing great though, girl! Proud of you for doing things the RIGHT way! :D

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