Then: I thought I knew everything. How could I possibly ever be boring and grown up? I would be different. I know who I am, and I won't change for anything.
Now: I can recognise that I don't know everything, and I definitely recognise I made some poor (but fun!) decisions. I look forward to learning more about myself and life, and changing for the better.
Then: When I met another girl I was jealous of for whatever reason, I was either a straight up bitch or I was super fake. Like that person didn't deserve my congratulations or compliments.
Now: If I see a pretty girl, I am not embarrassed to tell her that she is gorgeous because I know compliments are awesome when they are sincere. If something fabulous happens to someone I love, I am truly happy for them. It's ok to wish for something similar for yourself, but jealousy just makes you bitter.
Then: You don't really think about where the relationship is going when you start out. It's just fun and it will probably end sometime.
Now: If you know you aren't gonna marry the guy eventually, there is no point to this relationship. note: by marry I mean be with forever. Not necessarily sign the paper and all that jazz. But if you know this person is not who you want snoring and farting next to you forever, there's no point going any further.
Then: If a boy I was 'dating' was a douchebag and a girlfriend tried to tell me, or if he cheated on me with a 'friend', or whatever - I ditched the girl. She was clearly jealous and trying to make me as unhappy as she was.
Now: Hoes before bros y'all. Or something like that. Within reason, if a girlfriend tells me something is up, I trust her. She's looking out for me. Boyfriends come and go, girls are forever. Obviously I'm married now, but you know what I mean. He's forever too.
Then: If someone didn't like me, I pretended not to care whilst secretly trying to convince them that I am awesome.
Now: I don't like everyone, so I can't expect everyone to like me. It's not always malicious when someone doesn't like me, it's just personalities not meshing. And that's okay.
Then: Spend all the money in the bank account! That's what it's there for, right? If there's enough to pay the bills, yay. If not, at least I had fun!
Now: Budgets. Bills first. Fun later.
Then: Pre drinks to get as hammered as possible.
Now: Pre drinks to save money.
Then: Twenty drinks, next morning I feel fine and dandy. Gloats and brags about never having a hangover before, I must be lucky!
Now: I need three days to recover, please. Calls in sick on Monday: I think I have
Then: When I went out, I wanted the loudest, fastest, craziest music and dancing all night. Lets get hammered! Someone falls over, someone pukes, someone cries (hint: all of those someones are me)
Now: Can you turn this down? Is there somewhere I can sit to drink my wine? Do you have snacks? My feet hurt. Also, this is how I feel in a Forever 21 store.
Then: If I did something wrong, and I got caught or chastised, whether at work or in my personal life, I would either argue or not own up to it.
Now: I take all responsibility for things I do. I messed up? Shit. My bad. I will fix it. Unless I broke it. Sorry.
Then: Whatever is trendy is what is on my body. I can't even remember what was trendy when I was a teenager, which proves this point even more.
Now: I like trends as much as the next girl, but
Then: Girls were super bitchy. If you were proud of yourself, thought you looked good, had some confidence, you were judged. What a stuck up bitch.
Now: Girls are still bitchy. Womp womp. But I stay far away from those bitches. I am proud of who I am, I like the way I look and confidence is sexy.
Then: You're friends with people because you always have been, or for whatever reason. You keep seeing each other, keep trying to make it work because that's what you're supposed to do, right?
Now: I don't have time for toxic relationships. I could count my true friends on both my hands and I would much rather that than a bunch of meaningless acquaintances and have no one to call when I have a bad day, think I am pregnant or just want to talk to someone.
Then: I try to be everyone else, try to be what is cool, try to be someone else.
Now: I like myself, so that's who I'm gonna be.
Then: Afraid of getting old.
What about you? Any of these ring true, or do you think I am as crazy as ever?